Dancing On the Bar
But I don’t drink. I no longer have to drown out the pain with substances in order to survive. I remind myself that I’m not alone, and I surround myself with friends, family and people in recovery to help support me and lift me up. Without the people in my life,
I wouldn’t have made it. Who knows where I would be. My life has done a complete 180 for the better. My relationships with my parents and sister are stronger than ever —rebuilding what has been lost since the day alcohol entered my life. I’m finally finding joy again in the things I had sacrificed for my addiction. But I am still that girl that dances on the bar (just with a lower BAC).
Recovery has afforded me so many opportunities, most of which I probably don’t deserve. But luckily for me, I have a loving and forgiving God who has provided me with much more than I could ever ask for, including a job that seemed out of reach with my criminal record. Without sobriety, I wouldn’t have any of the successes the past few years have blessed me with. And if I somehow had managed that, I definitely wouldn’t have had anyone to share them with. Because at the end of the day, my most valued accomplishments are those that cannot be measured on paper. Happiness, serenity, overall well-being, healthy and loving relationships, compassion for others, and finally, being able to feel joy far outweigh any degree or job I could ever imagine. I am so unbelievably grateful that I’m a recovering alcoholic, because otherwise, I would be passed out in the corner of the bar instead of dancing on top of it.